An Update

I have been absent for awhile. Life happens. Well for me its more like: life smashes you in the face with a sledgehammer. Somehow I (some may say stupidly) keep getting back up so here I am again. Now that Thanksgiving has passed and my favorite season is transitioning into my least favorite season, i am trying to focus on Christmas (insert throw up emoji here) shopping, among other things. Always a fan of saving money, I have been searching Black Friday ads, but I gotta say all I have found is disappointment. All these companies think 20% off is an acceptable Black Friday deal. Wrong. I have seen some Black Friday-worthy deals, but the majority are just regular deals that you see on any given day the rest of the year. And to the companies raising their prices to make it look like they are giving you a good deal when they mark it down to what the regular price should be, we're on to you. 
The holidays have always been my least favorite time of year. I don't know why, but Christmas always makes me sad. It makes me feel alone, like I don't belong, like I don't deserve anything I have. I mean, I have these feelings all year long, but Christmas really amplifies them. As much as i love my family, I would love to just take a vacation by myself and not be around anyone during Christmas. I am probably the only person on the planet who hates receiving gifts. I like giving, but I truly dislike people buying me things. I am appreciative of everything but the feeling of receiving gifts is truly horrible. It is difficult because no one understands it and most people don't believe me if i tell them. How do I make people understand that the best gift they could give me is nothing at all?
A good thing I did recently that I am (secretly) excited about is that i signed up for a 4 mile fun run. I have always wanted to do one so i finally am going to just do it. It is in March, its a St. Patrick's Day run. It is only 4 miles but since i have not done any form of exercise in months, I am going to have to start training now. Everyone gets a finisher medal but there are also medals for the best time in each age group, and, even though I won't even come close, it would be really cool if I could get one of those too. It is just a fun run, but I still want to do good. I chose this run because the weather will be good at that time of year here, I like St. Patrick's Day, and there's green beer and donuts at the finish line. I mean it really doesn't get more perfect than that.